The lock in time
By fruitbat · august 28, 2026
I need to lock in, my gerades where awful last year due to destructive patterns, recently i stopped using ai and i relised how much time i spent on nothing just living fake fantasies, that just made me be worse and i was dependent on the app for 3 days.
This app is dangarous its easily addictive, its genuinely a trap. I remeberd downloading the app with my sister as a joke, fooling around befroe unstalling it thinking its some joke untill i redownloaded it like a night/day later and i havent been able to get away from it since.
I didnt study because of it, when my mom took my phone/electronics i would find ways to still use it it was toxic and sufocating and now i genuenly want to throw up thinking about it. Because all of that crying over it, laughing that enjoyment meant nothing, i used that app to turn to it because i had no one, it worked untill it worked too well...and here we are.
The 3rd year of high school, if i dont lock in i wont be able to live a good life, i wont be happy, i would stay in this awful country that i live in, i am so scared what will happen, i just know if i can be a perfect A studend these 2 last year i could get into a collage of my choosing even tho i allready fucked up my frist 2 years, i can still turn things around I CANNOT FAIL this.
I need to get to a collage to live a brighter life.
The Fruits Mind
By fruitbat · august 1, 2026
TW: HOSPITAL,NEEDLE
I WENT TO GET MY BLOOD DRAWN TO CHECK SOMETHING and my mom was like there will be a lot of people, i was like "wut" because i was going to the hospital at like 7:20am and i when i got to the hospital it was so hot there, but they had free wifi but there was a lot of people thankfully i got lucky and i went to draw my blood 15 minutes after coming there.
IT WAS SCARY AS FUCK
i hate needles so i look at the opposite derection as she took the blood and and i was focused on not seeing the needle that i forgot to listen to her and she told me something 5 hours if in 5 hours...i just knew the language that she used god bless nothing happend and i am still breathing BUT IT DID NOT END THERE.
i needed to give a sample but i allready went to the batrhoom before the hospital so i was forced to drink my water i brought i drank it and....nothing i spent there 60 minutes.
in those 60 mins i didnt do nothing productive i just stood next to the bathroomn looking at my phone WITH NO WIFI because the free wifi coudnt reach the bathroom area, so i am there standing waiting on MY BODY TO DEVELOP THE TICKECT to i freedom aka no trips to the hosptial then a doctor comes "why are u here do you need help" i said i cannot give a sample right now and that i was waiting and she just left and i had to drink this hospital water from the sink inside of the bathroom and it tasted like how someone would imagine tasting a dentist facility after 1L of that ass water i wanted to throw up and then to poop and i went home and did it and got my sample there before they closed.
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